I’ve been so tough about it and I’ve been moving forward but I have these moments late at night when I hear your laugh in the back of my mind or see your face in a moment that lasts as long as a flicker of a flame in a dream. Everything about you was so fleeting and yet you’ve anchored yourself to my core and you’ll be there forever. I wish things were different. I wish I didn’t have to pine for someone intangible. I have an ache in my chest that I’ve grown accustomed to. I have learned that expectations only lead to disappointment and that it really is better to just embrace the present. It’s far too late for me to be awake and far too late for anything I babble on about to make sense.